Another heart attack...

Was using the phone, suddenly heard a very loud crying sound. It was ordinary as i was used to it and thought it will be her falling down again from the chair or the table but it got me there when everyone was surrounding her asking her what happened?? what happened?? my mum place her palm on the head to find where was the wound as blood was flowing down till the floor. Everyone was panic till someone shouted "quick, take her to see the doctor". I carried her with the tissue on her head telling her that we're going out to get her ice-cream as to draw her attraction away from her pain. My heart was pumping so so fast and i was also praying at the same time wishing and hoping nothing bad will happen to my family.

We reached there and she finally found out that it was a lie. The nurse cleaned her wound and as she was cleaning she told us that she might need to stitch her wound. The doctor came and had a look at the wound and confirmed that she need to go for stitches and i felt really worried for her, i was thinking "how is she gonna take the pain even though with the injection"? I saw the doctor holding up the needle getting ready to inject her and her crying sound was so loud till the whole clinic could hear her, actually she was literally shouting her lungs out. My dad was trying to make her feel better but i can feel him wanting to get out of the room so badly as he couldn't stand looking at the doctor starting to stitch her head. As i was holding her feet i was still praying still wishing and hoping everything will be just fine after we walk out of the clinic and that the doctor wouldn't say anything bad about her.

After everything was finished. I was relieved as we walked out and get into the car heading home again. It was Veronica, my baby sister who fell and hurt her head while coming out of the toilet.

Off for camp!!

7.12.2009

Happy Birthday 18th Ivan!! You still owe me a guitar played song, you know what i mean!! But i hope your dream and wishes come true!! Have a great day. God bless (:

Silent Night.... Holy night....

Its a Tuesday and the calender says its 1st of DECEMBER 2009. Its DECEMBER, its DECEMBER... but why do i not have the Christmas spirit in me?? I know when i was a kid i used to feel so excited when this month is coming cuz my birthday happened to be on the same month (means i get double the presents!!) But it doesn't feel the same anymore like i don't see every single streets filled with deco. I really miss those shimmering and glittery deco everywhere in Malaysia. May be its expensive decorating so many places but may be some where in PJ should have those pretty decorations hung on the trees and some of the ready made decorations placed in empty places around??

Does Malaysia has a place to play with snow?? I don't think so... In Malaysia, many doesn't get to experience snow due to our climate (I know it your mind you must be thinking, go to overseas la??) but for people who doesn't get to tour around the world due to their job or many it is too expensive for them will only get to experience snow if our country gets to build a snow kind of exhibition where any age range citizens from kids to adults will get to play with snow during christmas seasons. Even if it cost a lot building this but i'm sure many would like to experience?? and many tourist would like to come to this snow exhibition when they come to malaysia to celebrate christmas??

To me, christmas is celebrated to have fun playing around with friends and family and i know you must be thinking even without snow we can celebrate christmas werd?? But whats wrong with making out christmas a better one?? I just miss those kids time when everyone can't wait till opening their presents below the christmas tree and always awaiting for 25th of december to arrive. I know i would beg my parents when i was lil on christmas eve whether i could open at least one present. Even though there was no snow like now but at least the christmas spirit was still there with everyone who celebrates christmas. For my family, my family members and i would dig out old christmas deco from the store room even long before christmas would even arrive. Even though we always reuse the lights and deco but every year the tree would have different colour on the tree.

Hmm.... I really just miss those times...

I was in the car after lunch, and then the thunder started to storm really loudly, many were shock and i was alarmed by this screaming when i was in this shop along the street. When i was waiting for the car to arrived, the wind blew the rain water into the shop houses and the floor was really slippery and wet after the car arrived, it was quite peaceful as the rain started to slow down. After a while, the sky started to turn black and the rain droplets started to drip down from the sky and because of that i started to feel lil sleepy and so, i was trying to find my comfort place to fall asleep. After i've found it, i closed my eyes and starting to try to fall asleep but my brain was occupied and i was thinking, thinking bout you and i realized i'm missing you so much. I know that you're far away and normally, this kind of thing doesn't work out but because of your strong commitment and love you had in your heart this relationship continue its history. I miss you, i really do.

Feeling so sick having cramps and back ache at the same time!! Arghh...

Little Nyonya (:

Hmm... currently addicted to series. Bad bad.. trying to tell myself to stop cuz of exams but just can't. Its really addictive!!

I miss you, so so much. It hurts when i just think that i'm not good enough, but i'm like that. I realised that you just have to like accept the way i am. I can't change no matter how hard i try but i can say that i'm really lucky to have this kind of chance. You gave the best memories and experience and even if you didn't bring me to every places in the world but you brought me to everywhere in life, ups and downs... thinking about those times we had is like starring at a diamond, very precious and meaningful. Thanks for making my life better. I know i cannot give much and thank you for holding on but i'd understand if you would wanna give up. I know that you deserves something better. Go, go, go get what you deserve....

bed time : 12am
waking up time : 4.45am

Dang i feel so damn freaking exhausted now. Hmm...

Add Maths + Physics = NOT GOOD AT ALL!!!

How i wish i'm in wonderland!! NO worries and NO STUDIES!!!

Hmm... i have a feeling that i won't do good for both papers today... Lord pls help me...

Woah Woah Woah!! What am i doing here?? I'm suppose to go study!! Tomorrow Accounts and English paper 1!! Bye..

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Ballet Shoes...

Have you ever felt so embarrassed and disappointing at the same time?? Hmm.... I felt like that this evening....

So many ups and downs.... Hmph....
Pftt...

Baby baby with that high heels on....

I'm tired....exhausted....tired of thinking of so many things in my mind...pure Tired!!


Hot chocolate to make me stop thinking too much??? May be....

I walked out of school this afternoon telling fel that my brother will be fetching me and there i saw my dad's car and he was looking for me. I nicely went in to the car and sat and i asked " Why are you here?? Where's Gor Gor??" At this point i knew something was not right and my dad told me my principal of my ballet school called to inform that my exam will be at 4 something in the afternoon. And my heart starts to beat really fast. I was in total shock!!

But after everything it was overall fine... and my examiner was REALLY NICE!!! she kinda like sang the neat with us for free work and we don't have to stand in position everytime. She kept asking us to relax and all. Haaaa....

My hair is still in a bun and i'm afraid to walk in the bathroom because washing all the gel off is hard!!

Gonna have a nice time in the bathroom later ):

It got cancelled ):

Went to eat out with the family. Ate so much.... The crab i ate was bomb!! like seriously.... It was WOW!!! yeap.... hahaha. I feel like a super duper fat lady now!! Exam coming up so soon somemore. I CAN'T GAIN WEIGHT NOW!!!

Everytime a holiday starts, i'll start eating so so much till i go bloated everytime i finish a meal and even if i'm not hungry, i'll have to grab sometime to fit in my itchy mouth. hehehe. This holidays is aint for studying mann. I just can't tolerate people studying beside me when i'm not studying. Ish.... so annoying la. May be i'm just pure lazy?? Hmm.... most probably... hehehe. Val, START STUDYING!!! (:(:(:(:

School starts tomorrow already.... Hmm.....

Its on Tuesday the 29th!! so soon!! Hmm.... wish me luck.... And good luck for every other ballerina who will be taking their exam!!

P/s : Melia Foong, one of my toe nail is official black like yours!!!

So she dances (:

A waltz when she walks in the room
She pulls back the hair from her face
She turns to the window to sway in the moonlight
Even her shadow has grace
A waltz for the girl out of reach
She lifts her hands up to the sky
She moves with the music
The song is her lover
The melody's making her cry
So she dances
In and out of the crowd like a glance
This romance is
From afar calling me silently

A waltz for the chance I should take
But how will I know where to start?
She's spinning between constellations and dreams
Her rhythm is my beating heart

So she dances
In and out of the crowd like a glance
This romance is
From afar calling me silently

I can't keep on watching forever
I give up this view just to tell her

When I close my eyes I can see
The spotlights are bright on you and me
We've got the floor
And you're in my arms
How could I ask for more?

So she dances
In and out of the crowd like a glance
This romance is
From afar calling me silently

I can't keep on watching forever
And I'm givin' up this view just to tell her

Hmm... what hurts me the most is when something i've been putting effort in doesn't show any of a result at all. Hmm... There is this very confused feeling in me like if someone affirm you and the same person let you down and hurt you. What does it really mean?? I'm confused....

movies (:

Watching this with my aunt tomorrow. Whee.... (:

I wanna watch this, may be on wednesday with my sunday school friends?? Yes, No?? You guys better make it kay. Missing all of you already!! hehee...

Raya Cookies ....

Promoting Sweet Mill's raya cookies. This is the first time i'm doing this so if there is any feed back stop by at my cbox kay. Thanks. Pictures below is what they have there. This is like the best home made cookie ever mann.... :D The ingredients used are really real but not those with all kinds of colouring or flavouring what so ever. Just try once and i guarantee that you won't regret and you might be asking for more!! Just try kay, so that you won't miss out on the yummy-ness. You guys can ask jade, melia or my elephant( felicia ) in school whether is sit nice or not. Here you go, pictures!! There is another type though but i didn't take the pic since it was all sold out. Oh yeah, lil reminder, you guys gotta get the cookies early cuz the cookies are very limited since many customers ordered earlier. You guys gotta click to enlarge also kay.

Chocolate chips cookies ( very similar compare with famous amos)
RM 22

Hazelnut cookie
Rm 24

Pineapple tart
Rm 20
The pastry can just melt in your mouth once you put it in!!

You guys gotta go there to get kay!!!
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who calls u back when u hang up on him,

who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,

or will stay awake to watch u sleep,

wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,

who wants to show u to the world when u are in sweats,

who holds your hand in front of his friends,

who thinks you are pretty without make up on,

one who is constantly reminding u how much he cares and

how lucky he is to have you,

the one who turns to his friends and say..

That's her..

Confirmation Camp...

Just came back from the camp and i've definitely gained hell lot of experience from there. The form 4 people are just so different in the camp compared to in sunday school. Those serious faces they have always in sunday school was taken away and all of us had fun. The ah neh ( indians ) thought us few words to kutuk people. hahaha. and the process of learning was damn funny mann... This weekend was just something that i wish it could be longer. I meant it was so fun!! I think only pictures can describe the fun-ness we had this weekend. But as you know i just came back and pictures are in Jelly's Camera so yeah. Speaking about her camera, hahahhaha..... I didn't open the lense once when i wanted to take a picture. lol. jakuness...

I know this is kinda draggy but once i got the pictures, i'll post it up. A.S.A.P okay??? Hopefully i won't be lazy to wait for the pictures to load. hehhee.

This is what i need to settle my heart down right now. Anyone feeling me???? Creamy, fattening, melts in your mouth.... aaaaaaaaaaaa..... I'm sure Melia would love to eat this with me. (:

If life is as easy as this....


I need a long holiday so that i can spend it without any worries. Wanna be on my own.... hmm...

How i wish this place is mend for fulfilling dreams we have in life. period.

100th post...

Tomorrow is Veronica's( my baby sister ) birthday!! not really celebrating cuz my mum is tired cooking for partys and partys and more partys so just among my family only. I heard its gonna be a seafood hot plate so everything is gonna be YUMS!! hahahaha. thought of something lame!!! GOSH!!!

yum + yum = 2 thumbs up!!

haha... Just wanna wish you HAPPY 2nd BIRTHDAY !!

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Bathing is currently my biggest fear now cuz of ballet. My whole freaking skin came out after using my new demi pointe shoes and the worst thing was it was my exam rehearsal that day!! and further more i had to take off my shoes and go on pointe after that. Killer mann.... Well, i'm really scared of bathing cuz it really hurts alot when the water reaches my wound. The first time bathing after getting the wound, i kinda scream in the toilet. Wohoo.... sakit betul la....
Yesterday afternoon during tuition some liquid came out from my wound and melia showed me that disgusted face of hers and this morning something came out from my wound again!!! hmm... hope it will be fine soon. My ballet exam is coming already!! God bless me!!

So close but yet so far

See your face in my mind as I drive away
'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm...mmm...Mmm...mmm...mmm...mmm
Mmm...mmm...Mmm...mmm...mmm...mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

(Chorus)
And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know, like the back of my hand
And I can't...
Breathe... without you, but I have to
Breathe... without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I try to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know, like the back of my hand
And I can't...
Breathe without you, but I have to
Breathe without you, but I have to

It's 2am, feeling like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
And it's 2am, feeling like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me...

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
Oh...
I can't breathe without you, but I have to
Breathe without you, but I have to
Sorry, sorry, sorry, yeah, sorry
Sorry, sorry, sorry....

I know i have been abandoning this blog lately but I'm back. hahaha. Let me just talk about what happened lately. Actually its nothing much but just quite excited for the up coming holiday. Wanted to go for this ballet workshop from one of the man in tutus to teach, but unfortunately the fees was too expensive. Rm 450 for 8 classes. But its ok there must be some other time. School now a days are getting more and more boring and i don't find the point of going to school. I'd rather go for tuition for all subs then go to school. Hmm....

Gtg now.....

My soul (:

Going for Cindy's party later and i'm getting so excited!! Whee... hahahaha. Just now in the morning i was viewing dance videos and i'm still doing the same thing after ballet class. I feel so fat now. Ate so much of food mann. Don't trust me? Ask Melia. She saw me eating all the way. Melia, we need to go jogging!! Oh yeah, i might be joining jazz class!! Hmm... Dance is like so part of my life ever since i join ballet when i was young and i really wanna thank my MUMMY for sending me for classes. Dance is seriously an art that needs you to express all out from the heart. I know this is so weird but i just love the feeling when i sweat everytime in ballet class it is like losing your memory about all the unpleasant stuff which happened in the day. Even though i get tired really easi;ly but the more i get tired, the more i wanna try. My exam is coming and it means classes will be more intense and i got to work hard baby!! That is all. Tata...

It has been so bumpy lately, so many ups and downs but may be that is a experience so that it will make it all better?? I hope it will get better as time pass by. It's like glue and paper sticking together already, there is no way at all to split them apart?? To me its a life time experience and it will never be forgotten. Thank you.

To the world you may be someone but to someone you may be the world...

Hmm...

School.... school....school became damn boring ever since... I don't know when also. Its just so boring!! Ugh.... All we do in school is just study study study and sometimes we are just studying without even understanding a thing!! What i feel is we should just study what we like and may be not that many subjects are compulsory but subjects like english and maths?? Yes... No??

Life is easy but we humans just made it so hard and complicated!!

School was fine today until math period. I don't know what made me so damn excited until i hit my compass on the table. My hand is currently swelling but i really hope its getting better. It is so darn it pain now. I think i'm gonna put the ice pack on my hand so that it will stop the swelling.

I have tuition later and it is really gonna spoil my day. I'm sure gonna fall asleep later in tuition. Hmm....

Have been abandoning my blog recently. I'm just so lazy to blog even though i'm online.

Lets see, school has been ok and the happy thing is Jade is back in class!! I went to school today and i thought i'm gonna be alone but i saw Jelly!! Melia and jade didn't turn up cuz it was career day and friday is kinda useless so yeah. Nothing much coming up except for this sunday( melia, cherry and maddie's concert) You girls will be great no worries. Break a leg.

Hmm.....

Song of the day

Lyrics | Taylor Swift Lyrics | You Belong To Me Lyrics

Really Sunny day

The excretion from the body flowing all over you. Covering your skin and wetting the uniform is just so annoying. Taking a ride back home from school without any air conditioner in that old van just made us so damn pissed off. It just makes the body so wet and when you reach the gate of your house thinking about how nice is sit to just take a good bath but you can't because you're afraid to get white spots all over your body. Everyday wishing the weather would change a bit so that it would be better will seldom come through because we can never predict what will happened. Hmm.... The weather today just makes you sweat more and more and when you stand under the sun, the heat from above to your head burns your body from within. Hmm... how i wish the weather would be better.

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Went for soo's party at her house yesterday and it was quite okay. I prepared myself. Sorry soo, will give your your present soon kay. I love you babe. Happy belated sweet sixteen. Good luck in everything you do and hope your "10 wishes comes true"

Birthdays

The pictures for the trip is not up yet due to my laziness. If you know how fun was it you can go to MALACCA!! hehehe.

Birthdays on 28th of June 2009

Daddy's birthday: Dad, you have been a really great father to me and i know it was hard to be our father at home because we all put our high expectations on you. I know i often let you down but you always advice me and always ask me to do better the next time. You once said to me, as long as you've tried your best everything will end up to be good. This phrase will always be remembered in my heart. Dad, i'm sorry for everything i've done wrong and all the hurt i've cost you. Even though i'm not a perfect daughter but i'll try to be your best daughter. I know i'm not suppose to side anyone in the family but you are indeed the best at home. I love you Daddy and HAPPY EARLY 48th BIRTHDAY!!

Soo's birthday : Soo Hui has been a really great friend in school and the times we spend together will always be remembered. Even though we're not in the same class anymore this year but your voice in class last year will always be rememebered. I miss the times when we kept bullying Brandon in class last year and he kept teasing us back in every way he can. hahaha. I miss your small little tiny chocolate cup cakes you used to bake for us in class and you'll always be angry when we kept eating it till finish and the reason you're angry is because you have no more to give to your other friends. Remembering those times when you scribble your diary using marker pen and the time you open that pen i'll be saying that its smelly and you will be like " No, no smell also??" hahaha. Good friend, i just wanna wish you Happy sweet sixteen!! You're getting old. haha. I love you babe.

This 2 people have been great to me and i wanna send my compliment to both of you.
xoxoxo

Appreciate <3

MARLEY AND ME!!!

Yup, I watched it just now. I know i might be kinda out here but whatever.... I think it really have taught me a lesson. I think we humans have to just really appreciate whatever we have in life like our parents, our family, our friends, our pet...etc. Even if it is just an animal. Things in front of us we often don't realize but i really think we have to know that things in front of us are kinda temporary also. Things come and go and if we don't appreciate what is in front of us, one day we will just regret the whole lot of us. May be if our relationship with our parents is that not good, we can built that relationship up as our parents are also kinda temporary. Once their gone, they will really be gone. I know we will never know that kind of feeling of losing something unless we experience it but i feel that we just have to try to care and love for one another. No matter who is sit, it doesn't matter of that person really sucks as he/she is a human as well?? I know i'm a person who kinda hates the whole world but may be i should try to understand why people act as they are. Appreciate the ones around you as they will not come back to you again after you've regret things you've done to them. Be good to them try to understand them more.

Watch the movie if you haven't. It will make you cry!!

" As long as you give your whole heart to them, they will give you the same. Love them no matter they are young, old, short, tall, poor or rich. Care for the ones in front of you. "

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My mum made Famous Amos cookies for the family!! I tried, it was YUM YUM!! Don't be jealous!! LOl.

To melia:
P.s I'll bring to school tomorrow (:

That is all for the day....

xoxoxo

trip

I just came back from MALACCA with both my aunts and it was BOMB!! The food there was even more awesome mann. Like seriously!! It can't be describe by words so pictures are coming soon. Its in my aunt's camera gonna ask her to send it to me, hopefully it will be up by the next post. OH yeah, the night market of jonker street is damn different from our night market. Cannot compare with here. It is so good. The things they sell there can beat with the things in OU!!! I am freaking serious. The things are cheap and nice and they don't look like pasar malam stuff at all.... missing Malacca!!

I am damn freaking pissed off right now. The tuning people for my piano suppose to come over to do the piano at 10 in the morning but my mum totally forgotten about it so my maid was uninformed and she didn't dare to open the door for the person. After charging my phone just now, i realized how many times the person called me approx about 8 times?? Damnn.... Sorry la ):

Melia coming over for tuition soon. gtg. bye

I just fully recover from my fever. Last week was so calm as i was having a high fever. It was really bad until i couldn't even do some really easy to-do things. For example bathing. I had so many fears during the period of time. Fear to sneeze because i'm scared that the blood in my nose will come out (was having a nose bleed), fear to cough because i'm scared that my throat will get really ichy and i'll have to cough non-stop. There are so many other fears but i'm too lazy to elaborate. Suppose to go for a trip in penang last week but because of this high fever i couldn't go. Ish... Really want to experience something new since i've never went to penang also. Hmm....

Felicia a.k.a Aunty Chai's party was another thing i skiped. I know its totally over but hope all of you had fun!!

Sorry melia, I know this is kinda late but HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!! I totally forgot about my dear friend!! Don't worry i'll get you something kay.

Going to malacca on saturday for some wedding with my aunts then coming back the following day.

Friday, i'll be damn dead!! Haven't practise my piano after that term break and i haven't complete my piano theory too. My teacher is so gonna screw me up, side, down, in and out. Holiday mood la. Was having fever also. Can't blame me for that. hehehe.

Off for dinner....

My weekends starting from Friday till today was GREAT!! i guess. Let me just briefly tell what happened.

On Friday, i went to cut my hair!! FINALLY!!! hahahaha. It was so damn thick and flying everywhere but after i cut my hair was is so light and back to normal?? hahahaha. Dinner was Asam Laksa and it was like the bomb mann.... MUM you rock!! Later at night, i went for add math tuition and after that i went uptown for supper and thats all.

On Saturday, I woke up quite early because i couldn't sleep and i ended up painting my nails (: After that i went to my mum's shop to spend some time. I went to OU with my aunt with brian and vanessa for lunch at Sakae. It was like... Yum Yum!! Salmon sashimi was so good!! damn good and i like the chawamushi. The one with the caviar. Whosh!! hahahaha. But the only thing was they didn't have the ramen i wanted. Its kinda weird because the Sakae in Singapore have that noodles. Hmm..... why can't they have it here?? Gosh!! After that went walking around without any money what so ever with me, just went walking around and i so need to drag my mum there, there are like so many new stuff and i felt so out. Damn.... At night i went to my aunt's house for dinner and the food was quite ok i like the "Petai - so called cmelly beans" Damn nice. Those whom never ate before must try!! MUST!!

Today, went to church in the morning and later went for meeting till about 2.30. And after that i ate pasta. I went jogging!!! hehehehehe. Need to lose some weight. I can't fit into some of my pants ): The environment in kiara park didn't really changed from the last time i went there. After finish jogging, I washed my aunts car. Since i was born i've never washed a car before and today i did!! It was fun!! Like really fun. Hahaha. but it was more like playing with water. XD Nevermine, everything has it's first time right? hehe. Thats all for today. might be going to pasar malam in taman megah later (:

Tata.

Corntoz XD

This simply just reminds me of something (:

hahahaha. that corntoz really reminds me of the inside joke with Ivan. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Its just so freaking funny thinking about it.

This is kinda random but the colour green and orange has become something that i like!! You guys might be thinking " Hmm.. finally something other than pink"?? Hahaha, yes it is something other than pink. Many people might think that the colour green is something really awwful and it is a colour which can hardly match any clothes but i like green because its stands out from all the others (:

exam period

Accounts was okay today but physics was so damn hard. I was cracking my head thinking about all the solutions and how to do and stuff. At one point i was looking at the ceiling hoping all the answers will be on top. I really don't know how well i did but i surely did regretted for not studying ahead for all subjects. But i really had no time. Everyday is a busy day. Everyday i have tuition except for Wednesday but i still have to go for ballet. Hmm... Life is getting so hard that even when falling down, i have no courage or reason to get up anymore. Today is so hot. I'm like sweating while typing this. Tomorrow will be chem and moral. I don't know any nilai at all. Damnnn... I'm so damn dead. Moral will be the first subject of the day also. Hmm.... HELP!!!

Hmm....

Exams are still on and subjects for the whole next week are all killer subs. Tomorrow will be History paper 1, Bm paper 2 and PJPK. Scrap the PJPK mann. I think the school is kinda dumb cuz Sivik and PJPK is counted in our percentage so if fail sivik or pjpk means you'll fail all. Hmm....

Why studies have to contain subjects we don't like? I was messaging melia this morning and we were talking about studies and i asked her why do we have to study subjects we don't like and she said This is not a dream world that you can do anything you like. Why can't we study subjects which are related to what we dream of? Why can't melia and i study how to dance all kinds of dance in high school instead of waiting until we go to college or uni?? Afterall studying in high school suppose to relate with our future. So instead of studying subjects which are not related to our career like add-maths, modern-maths and stuff like that, we study subjects which are related to our career. Hmm....

Good luck to everyone who are having their exams. God bless.

The earth

The earth is in such a hot condition mann. After taking a cool bath i'll surely sweat. Ridding in my transporter's car after school is just such a killer also. i don't know why but his useless air-con just can't blow as strong as other cars. Hmm... "Go fixed your air-con uncle!!!" Someone save the earth please!!

American idol's finale was such a bomb according to melia. I haven't watch it yet so i can't judge it. But KHRIS ALLEN WON!!!!! hehehe. I think both of them are good and no matter who wins it doesn't matter but i think its the journey all the contestant had went through. I wanna watch the finale. Can't wait till tonight!! AHhhhhhhhhhhhhh....





It was long and i don't wanna end it. I don't want it to be like a happy starting but a bad ending. Hmm... up and down can't be avoided but its just how you go through and try to solve it. No matter how the story ends i still wanna thank you so much. I can't denied that you really did change my life tremendously thank you for everything. xoxo.

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Didn't go to school today. Gonna really study and make my day productive. Today will be add maths and history *cough cough* i think i'm gonna fail history mann. Sorry melia didn't call you to tell you whatsoever. My credit expired and haven reload yet so could msg you. Sorry. Haven been blogging for the past days and i did study for my coming exams but there are too many subjects!!! Guess i just gotto pray hard and after the exam i will play hard!! HOLIDAYS!!! Need to shop for tops. I think i've been wearing the same clothes every time. Damnn...

Thanks for everything. i know it had been a long journey and the journey will continue on and on. Memories which happened will be engraved in my heart even though bad incidents happened, i will learn from all the mistakes and i will try to change to be a better person. There will be more and more obstacles but i know we will make it through. All the thick and thins we've been through are things that we have to learn from. You make a difference and please do continue to make more difference in my life. xoxo.

Life is more than that

School was so boring today. We had 6 free periods this morning and they are such important subjects like add math and physics. I was practicing spm pass year questions for add maths and due to my laziness i end up playing brain juice on jade's phone. HAHAHA. Still maths though. It was so addictive i tell you. Melia was beside me playing quadropop and i don't understand how she play mann... She was in level 9 and she earned like about a 10000 points. DAmn... She's a game freak. hahaha.So many people did not turn up today and i know many people will not be going to school tomorrow since most of the teachers are in some training i think. Hmm... i know i will have to go cuz my mum won't allow. She'll tell me some stories about my future and there goes, still have to go to school. hahahahha. Sometimes i wish i could convince my mum about some of her thinking. I'm gonna go to bed later then ballet then work again!! I wish i could take a break out of everything i'm doing. Life must be more than just studying right?? What about having fun?? Hmm....

Brand New (:

I'm staring at this really bright thing in front of me and my eyes really are not used to the brightness. This bright is so bright and huge that everything seems to be enlarged on it. HAHAHA.... wonder what is sit??? It's my new monitor!! Mummy went to lowyat with my brother this afternoon and they got a new monitor and a new camera!!! hahahaha. The monitor is really so bright and huge. even the words are like big. hahaha. School is fine but like usual it is tiring...


Stop being such a hypocrite. Say one thing and do another. You're just trying to be some holy person but look at your behavior mann..... I know no one in this world is perfect but you can still watch what you're doing right?? Do think before you do anything and you have brains, you should know how to think whether to do or not to do things and you should do things when its the right time. Hmm.... Be who you are who doesn't have to act the fool out of yourself.

Examinations

exams are like NEXT WEEK! gosh, i haven really study yet. I have no time at all seriously. somemore it is so damn tired after every tuition and sometimes even worst, after school i'll be damn sleepy already. Like today!! I was so tired and sleepy after school and i can't even do my homework. God, please help me... Hahaha. I just really need motivation and i need the strength to be awake so that i can study more and understand more and more each day. But the most important is i must remember what i studied. Hmm.... i need more prayer. Its true.

Sometimes in life you just need to ask yourself why exam ever exist....

Jokes

Jokes from Ivan's blog. HAHAHAHA. really funny(:


THIS IS REALLY FUNNY!

Presenter : Good morning. This is Power 98 & do you want to play a game?
Contestant : Yeah, why not.

Presenter : Good. It is a simple game. When I say something you have to give an answer that is opposite to what I have said. For eg. when I say Sharp, you have to answer Blunt. OK?
Contestant : OK.

Presenter : Sun
Contestant : Moon.

Presenter : Black
Contestant : White.

Presenter : Tall
Contestant : Short.

Presenter : Dog
Contestant : Cat.

Presenter : Man
Contestant : Woman

Presenter : Cock
Contestant : CHIBAI !!!

RADIO SILENCE !!!!!!

Presenter : These things sometimes happen and we are on air live. Let's take a commercial break here.

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A young husband comes home one night, and his wife throws her
arms around his neck: "Darling, I have great news: I'm a month
overdue. I think we're going to have a baby! The doctor gave me a
test today, but until we find out for sure, we can't tell anybody."

The next day, a guy from the electric company rings the door-bell,
because the young couple hasn't paid their last bill: "Are you Mrs.
Smith? You're a month overdue, you know!"

"How do YOU know?" stammers the young woman.

"Well, ma'am, it's in our files!" says the man from the electric
company.

"What are you saying? It's in your files?????"

"Absolutely."

"Well, let me talk to my husband about this tonight."

That night, she tells her husband about the visit, and he, mad as a
bull, rushes to the electric company offices the first thing the next
morning.

"What's going on here? You have it on file that my wife is a month
overdue? What business is that of yours?" the husband shouts.

"Just calm down," says the clerk, "it's nothing serious. All you
have to do is pay us."

"PAY you? and if I refuse?"

"Well, in that case, sir, we'd have no option but to cut yours off."

"And what would my wife do then?" the husband asks.

"I don't know. I guess she'd have to use a candle."

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You are in trouble
An evil Atheist explorer in the deepest Amazon suddenly finds himself surrounded by a bloodthirsty group of natives. Upon surveying the situation, he says quietly to himself "Oh God, I'm screwed!!!!!."

There is a ray of light from heaven and a voice booms out: "No, you are NOT screwed. Pick up that stone at your feet and bash in the head of the chief standing in front of you."

So the explorer picks up the stone and proceeds to bash the living heck out of the chief.

As he stands above the lifeless body, breathing heavily and surrounded by 100 natives with a look of shock on their faces, Gods voice booms out again: "Okay ..... NOW you're screwed."

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Chu Kang ( PCK ) explaining sex to Chu Beng's son, Aloysius ..................

Aloy : Why is making love so enjoyable ?

PCK : Aiyah, ah boy, enjoyable becaws, same like when you dig your nose with your finger mah !

Aloy : Do you think women enjoy sex more than men?

PCK : Of course woman lah ! When you dig dig your nose, your nose feel better than your finger, right ?

Aloy : Why do women hate it when they get raped ?

PCK : Ai-yah ! Say, you walk along the load, den someone come over and dig your nose, you like or not ? Ehhh ? Don't pray pray ah

Aloy : Why is it a woman cannot have sex when she is having her menses?

PCK : Oy !! If your nose bleeding, you still go and dig meh?? Siow ah ! blain, use your blainnn ..........

Aloy : Why is it most men don't like wearing condoms when they are making love ?

PCK : Ehhhh, when you dig your nose ah, you like to dig with a glove on your finger or not ? Not the same shiok feeling mah. Corlight or not?

Aloy : Why is making love carried out in private ?

PCK : Ah boyyyyy, use your blain, use your blainnnnn . you go and dig your nose in flont of your whole class izit ?? Stupid lah!!

Aloy : Wah ...... Uncle Chu Kang, you are very good.

PCK : Aiyah ...... best in Singapore and JB, and some say Batam also ah !!!

Mother's Day

It's mother's day today and i spend my weekend in the FARM!! It was quite good but tiring. The term of the 08's being an outreach team is over but its a starting for all of us to be someone who is more responsible in life and also in the ministry. The 09's keep up the good work!! It is not an accident that all of you is chosen. Looking at all of you guys in camp really remind me of when we first chosen to be in the team. Thank you A.pat and U.richard for guiding us through out the whole journey. You teach us to be more prayerful. And all the sacrifices you made for us cannot be described by words. Thank you so so so much. I realized i have quite a lot of mummys. hahaha. saw the S?? hehe. Well HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY ALL MUMMYS IN THE WORLD!!!

Update

Val wont be online for a period of time, since her screen monitor broke down.
Oh well, just to keep this blog alive.

Hmm.....

Studying for the accounts test tomorrow. OMG!! All the Untung bersih, untung kasar, pulangan belian...etc. is all in my head. I just really need to remember them until tomorrow and i won't wanna missed any of those becasue i don't wanna copy a hundred times!! PUAN ....... hahaha. Oh yeah, my pc crash this evening and its so annoying i tell you!! AGH!!! Try to imagine this, when you want to use the pc to do your work and you have to print something from there but when you go the the pc it simply couldn't work. The monitor freaking got crash!! gosh...

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Went into melia's blog and i realized how much i've missed out. I wanna do dance as my carreer but as far as i know dance won't get me far and futhermore being a dancer can never earn much. I love dancing especially ballet. I enjoy dancing even though i'm dead tired even when i know that i have loads of work piling up at home. That is how much i love to dance. I want to join so many things but i know i cannot cope with it. Studies are getting so much harder compared to Form 3. Hmm... now i know why my Form 4 friend last year told me that Form 3 is nothing. It is really nothing. It is actually the basics?? yup... Form 4 teaches the detail like really detail. hahaha.

survey

Found this in patrick's blog and wanted to try so yeah....

If you guys wanna try also this is the link

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Life...

What is life about if nobody cares, nobody knows and nobody understands?
Sometimes i really do hope that i was not to be born to this world.
I feel like getting out of what i'm doing now.
The feeling of wanting to get out of this country is so high that no one can ever imagine.
Life is like mountains, filled with all the ups and down.
All this mountains we go through everyday which is filled with all the obstacles, unhappiness, unfairness etc. is like a routine already, although i don't wanna get use to it but i cannot stop it from happening.

Sometimes i feel like asking you to shut up!
Sometimes you don't even realize that perhaps your words hurts a lot.
Keeping all the hurt inside just make it so pain.
I hope you can change but i know that i've got to change myself first?
I tried, infact i've been trying really hard but it just doesn't work.
i'm not you, i can't do things as perfect as you.
Please do not aspect that i'll be like you cuz i'm not you.
Hmm....

Happy Birthday

Today was Nigel Ding Jo Wei's sweet 16 so we wanted to suprise him and stuff like that during recess. Wan Hsin organizer * if not who will right?? hahaha * Soo baked the cake and the rest just keep everything as a suprise!! Jade, Melia and I wrote " HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIGEL"each letter for each of our palm. It was kinda tickelish at first but it was more to the pain side when Jade was writing on my hand. Melia couldn't stand it but to laugh when jade was trying to write on her hand and as usual her body was moving in every direction. haha.. We showed our hands to NIGEL during recess but before that we sang the birthday song for him and stuff then we went to him and showed him but it kinda like failed because he had a lil of that blur look on his face. haha......

Anyways, HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN NIGEL!!! whoa....

Look at that cute lil face...

Whee pee....

My lil brother was bugging to make a mask for him for his art in school since last week and at last being his sister, i made it for him. Actually i made one for him already but my baby sister went to grab it and koyakan the mask. Haihzz.... Guess how long i had to spend doing that mask mann... 3 freaking hours... Its 3 hours!!! i sat down on the chair in my room till i'm having backache now. Suppose to sleep but since i promised him I did it. I'm such a nice sister right?? hahaha. I painted it nicely and make sure it looks like a mask so yeah the product was okay. Just okay. here you go a picture of that mask i made. not that clear though...



Speaking about my brother. When i was online yesterday he suddenly came to me and said he had music test yesterday and he had to blow the recorder. So he was like " Jie, i wanna blow for you" and so like okay and i was also hoping it will sound good but it was a disaster!!! It was seriously horrible. He kept going off pitch and without giving up he went to blow the song over and over again beside me and i had to say STOP!! for a few times to him. Gosh!! that was horrible mann besides he came to told me that he got an A for blowing that same song!! I wonder how the teacher tahan the sound?? Haihzz... unbelievable right.. hahahah.

the loved one....

You are special to me, you're a comforter, you're a helper, you're an angel and you're just one in a million.....

I can never find someone like you again in my whole entire life. You helped me in everything i do and whenever i need someone to talk to or to release a feeling inside, you'll always be there. I wanna thank you a lot for everything you've given me also. You've done so many things for me and when i thought i might not repay you in anyway you still say its okay. Thank you for doing so much and thank you for all the times when you were there when i needed someone to be my listener. You made me feel that everything will be fine even though it may not seem to be in the most perfect way. I may not worth a lot but you made me feel that i worth every single second to you. Thank you for making everything so real to me and thank you for giving this beautiful experience that i'll never get to experience from someone else. It is you who made me feel this way and i'm sure nobody else will (:

Realize

Dance like you never dance before,
Sing like there's no one is listening,
Play like no one is looking at you,
Live like today is your last day of life.

The person who likes gold ....

Happy Birthday JADELINE CHENG.

Whoo whoa.... Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to Jadeline.....

Hah, happy sweet 16th girl. You're officially older. Haha.

Lets see, i've known you in primary school but we never get close to each other. But this year we're both in the same class and means its the time to get to know you more. Able to be a friend of yours was really a happy thing to me as you always keep yourself and your friends positive. You, i would say that you're a girl who carries a 100% smiling face on that pretty face. You face every single thing with a smiling face even though something is bad. You'll never give up on trying to help your friends and family when they are in their trouble times.

I know there are very mild chance for you to catch your dreams but i know you'll never give up. Use the spirit in you like you'd help other people with their problems. Don't ever give it up as it is the only thing you'd like to do in your life. Keep up the spirit and always put god in your heart as it will help you to know whether you're on the right path. Be who you are now and don't ever change. You will always be my friend. xoxoxo.

Feeling so damn restless. I dunno why but yeah....

I was doing add maths work during english and mod-maths. I really pity miss yow especially when everyone doesn't wanna listen to her. I think she's like the coolest teacher of all teachers mann. She conducted a treasure hunt for our class, bought really yummy and cute cup cakes for us, gossip around with us and she do all kinds of stuff with us but nobody wants to listen to her. Which teacher in our school other than her will do such things for us mann..... I felt guilty also when i was one of them who doesn't really pay attention during her class. But i realised that only mondays we don't pay attention but other days we do. Guess its because of its the first day of the week?? Hmm... Most probably....

Today was kinda ok. I guess???? Was just feeling restless. Need sleep!!!!!!!!!
TATA....

EASTER!!

Its easter!! i thought easter will be fun but i ended up doing the same routine except didn't go to church because i went for mid night mass yesterday. I was suppose to go for jade's easter thing in segi but couldn't make it. Sorry babe for the dissapointment. I wanted to go because i've never go for another denomination's event. I wanna see how the celebrate easter, how they worship god. But its ok. Guess i'll have to wait for another time. May be for amelia's church musical?? I think its a musical if i'm not mistaken.

Oh yeah, i think i've failled to be a mum. Like seriously. hahaha. Alright let be explain why. My mum went out with my aunt and she left my baby sister with me, means i'm suppose to take care of her. Everything went well except when i was carrying her up to her bed to sleep, she asked for MILK!! *F.Y.I my mum still breast feed her* So i was like, SHIT!!! so without any delay i went to make milk out of the normal milk powder we all drink but unfortunely she doesn't wanna drink. So i was like shit la, how weih??? I totally lose my patience towards her and brought her down stairs. When i carried her down, my aunt was like why you didn't let her sleep???? then i was like she doesn't want to. Gosh mann, she's such a small creature and i cannnot even make her sleep. Hmm.... She didn't wanna sleep but she made me feel like sleeping instead. hahaha. I think thats about it.

xoxoxoxo

BYE......

Someone said BYE to me the other day. It was so special as it didn't mean by just a normal bye but i can see both of her eyes missing me. I know we didn't know each other very well but you just look like you don't want me to leave. I will appreciate the friendship between us. Be the way you are now. You will always be my friend!! I love you babe!! xoxoxoxoxoxo....

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You know, you're the best person who ever appear in my life. You just prove me wrong about what i always think. i'll never forget every single moment that we went through together. All the sweet memories i will always keep it in my heart. No one can take you away from me because you'll always be mine.....

Banana

have you seen such a banana??
hahahah.
Its actually really really small and tiny.
My mum asked my brother to eat it and everyone started laughing but luckily no one vomited cuz we were all having our dinner. hahaha.
One of my brother (brian) was thinking sick about that banana when he's only 8??
hahahha.....

Tongue twister.....

Today was fine i guess. Wanna post a short one about what happened. Hahahhaha.

During the last period, i suddenly thought of tongue twister. I suddenly went like, she sell sea shell on the sea shore and jadeline came up with the another one. I even end up learning a cantonese one. hahaha. Besides that nothing much happened.

Amelia is coming over later for tuition. I think thats about it.